No place to escape to

Great fear and anxiety come from when you don’t have a solution to change bad situations.

so you stuck, you don’t know what can you do , because what you’ve been trying doesn’t work. And you are confused.

time is passing…

what you have been wanting for, is still missing.

maybe that’s the essence of life.. is to be suffering.

I can see how I would have a lonely life for the rest of my life.


Anxiety come out when I’m asleep , when my conscious mind is relaxed, the unconscious mind start to play the rule, and it brings uncertainty, fear, 


i hate it so much  

i don’t know why we stopped talking to each other.

I guess we both thing we are awesome and we can’t let that self images go .

so we end up being lonely... at least I’m lonely 

Think about my life in the past

Listen old songs, and all the memories flowed out of me 

 “I’ve been trying to suppress my feelings in the past whole year”

That summer I was happy.


I am so glad when I look back , I am now not heart broken, and my world isn’t fall apart anymore. 

even though I’m still sort of heart broken.