I hate that I can't fall asleep. I am thinking something, I'm worried about something that I'm unable to deal with it. Idk where I life goes. I'm scared of pursuing my dream, I'm scared of being dancing so hard. I am scared of one day I need to pay for it by using my vitality and my health. No one can really understand me, bc I don't really tell anybody what I really am.  

I can usually hold all my pains and worries. But i kinda freak out in this moment. idk how long I can be alive. Should I stop doing anything that's meaning to my life and happiness ?